As some of you may know, I am currently an English and Secondary Education major. My ultimate goal is to become a high school English teacher.
I have always had a love of books. My mom worked to get me to start reading before I was even in kindergarten, and I could read a few short children's books on my own at that point. As I worked my way through school, I had a few teachers who nutured that love of books. The librarian would let me check out books from a section with a higher reading level, even though she generally looked down upon this. My second grade teacher read us a few chapters from various books each day, to calm us down after recess. My fourth grade class had BookIt!, with which you could get free pizza from pizza hut just for reading a certain amount of books in a set period of time. In middle school, I was able to take a class solely devoted to reading and found myself working with books, thinking about them and analyzing them, in ways I never had attempted before. Through high school, I read the classics and a few up-and-coming novels that really got me thinking about the world and how it works. Books have always guided me, and I've found that comforting.
It's been the same way with writing. As evident with this blog, I love to write just for the heck of it. I don't ever need to be a published author making money, as long as I have somewhere I can express myself with words.
When it came time for college, I had to settle down and decide what direction I wanted my life to take. It was almost effortless. I knew I wanted a job where I could share my passion with others, where I could possibly inspire another to find a love with books similar to mine. Teaching offered this. Hence, I went forth down the educational track.
Now, though, as I sit in college classes reading Beowulf, Native American creation literature and adolescent lit, like Twilight and Speak, I wonder if this career path is going to be as rewarding as I hoped. I see others pursuing degrees in Engineering, in Medicine, in Law, in Criminal Justice, all careers that will offer a direct impact on the outside world.
With English, there's not much room for an impact. Literary canon hasn't changed for years, aside from a few modern works being incorporated in with curriculum. Reading books isn't going to make daily life easier for the average American, as engineering would. I'm not going to be saving a life, as a doctor might. I'm not making the streets any less full of crime.
I'm beginning to wonder why, if I have always wanted to impact someone or something's life, did I not choose a career where this impact would be certain.
Because making a teenager love books in an age when information is available in just minutes via television, video and the internet is going to be a difficult task.
I don't think I will ever change majors or switch my plans. I'm just going to have to work that much harder at the task I've set myself to and hope that I fulfill my original intentions.
And still, after all this thought on the subject, I know I will be happiest spending my days reading and writing, and I suppose that is the most important thing. If I, myself, am not happy, I can't expect to do much good for others anyway, regardless of any degree I may have obtained, so I'll just keep going with my instinct here.